a life of decadence.
summary of the past few days: highlighted my hair (and I'm not exactly pleased with it but well...shld I perm it?), spent hundreds shopping and buying stuff for people and myself, clubbed at Zouk with many ppl for a crazy night, indulged in a french manicure with Terese and stocked up on makeup.
I'm bored of this life!
heading off to another tiring day with Mom tmr.
at VJ band with aprilyn, kellyn, terese and fonny =)
[30'11'03']
A levels are OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FOREVER! NO MORE PHYSICS ECONS MATHS CHEM AND GP! well maybe GP and Econs. But NO MORE NO MORE NO MORE! hahahaha.
oddly I don't feel as happy as I expected to be. Oh well.
goodbye VJ...goodbye 02s44. bleahx shld do a preview of my gown below..and nice memories...
[Thursday, November 27, 2003]
bleah. Phys 5 was okay..minus the dumb mistakes.
okay the plans...
And there. Arg. Sometimes I hate myself, cos I need to plan everything beforehand PLUS I'm super indecisive.
[26'11'03']
bleah. I admit. I'm jealous when I see you.
found a real nice miniskirt at ebase..hope to get it tmr or sth. can't get into any mood at all to study for physics...ah right. I'm envious of everyone buying stuff! and I can't seem to get anything nor have the money for it!
planning the after-exam activities are giving me a bigger headache than everything itself.
and I'm bloody addicted to pimping online. ahha. idlepimps.com =)
[24'11'03']
say hi to little Nicholas! =) prettttty boy!
went out today and found my accessories for prom! yeaps really happy day! (when I'm happy I sound really bimbotic.)
oh yes. I gave a $20 reward (hahaha!) to my sister...cos she scored a raw score of 263 in her PSLE=) which is the highest I've heard till now. Top 7 in the school..even got to stand up and show off. haha. She's heading to DHS! AND joining band.
bleah. I wonder how my dress is going to turn out next thurs during my fitting. I'm sure as hell not going to waste my $220 on something I can't wear. urgh..the anticipation is wearing me thin!
[22'11'03']
sickening.
argh. I'm rather ambivalent about physics seriously. But just 2 more papers to go!
I got trashed at pool just now. Hmm the pool goddess hasn't seen a pool table for months already alright!
simply cannot wait for this last hurdle to be over.
for now, please take one last look at my relatively black crowning glory!
[22'11'03']
physics is one major stumbling block to liberation!
screwed.
guess I'll head to the doctor after the physics paper tmr or something. Being sick is no fun at all, especially so when it's the A's. I can't talk properly without sounding like a crow, plus I cough incessantly and I cannot breathe, worse still if it's airconditioned. I CAN'T EVEN SLEEP! and I got drenched just now by the rain!
anyhow, I've packed the other notes neatly into one large stack, ready for recycling. Hah. Save the Earth!
Exams have drained almost all of my energy. I'm about as energetic as a snail.
bleah. I'm nutty. 100% nutty.
LET'S DO AN EXERCISE!
hahahahahaha.
[20'11'03']
GUYS! by this I mean my friends..who are going to Gold Coast Australia next year.
I did a writeup and a rather skimpy plan for our one week there.
bleah. rough itinary it is.
[18'11'03']
I've never ever felt as confused as I am right now.
It's such a weird feeling.
I have this urge to change the picture on top.
Dreamt of many beautiful things the past days, no matter the sporadic sleep that plagues me.
exciting.
for thy grace is sufficient
[16'11'03']
(I) rewind
'differences'.
(II) rewind more
'friendship'.
(III) the last rewind
'epitome of betrayal'.
time doesn't heal all wounds.
[16'11'03']
it's time to return.
A's are halfway through.
being home alone is not fun at all, contrary to popular belief.
insanely depressed now.
[14'11'03']
endless shopping, clubbing and prom preparations are but a superficial way to pass time.
it doesn't hide the true emptiness and sense of loss inside.
hah. clubbing left my ears and head ringing plus the stale smoke in my hair. loads of ppl making out/ picking up ppl/ shaking heads on the dance floor. oh well. but dancing on the podium was cool =) the dancing was the best part...reckon I danced more yesternight than the whole week walking combined.
and the lighting..well it makes everyone look good. haha. and the makeup was messy. messy messy party.
What is there to do?
urg.
aight pictures.
too lazy for the rest..tmr it shall be.
[2111]
headed home to change with tripl, then went to fitting, and then Jon's hse..before dinner at Novena then pool and some games..relatively boring for an after A's celebrations right? =) EXCEPT I took a ride from DH back on his motorbike! woah freaking fun. I yelled my bloody head off..and I swear I went bonkers on the highway. haha. thanks anyway spermyweed (hmm tt sounds good) for the ride!
Xiaohan and I at the fitting! nice gowns right!
I and tripl! my gown turned out a-okay! shan't reveal more now ;) more alterations though..since i SLIMMED DOWN! laa!
chem class...with the triplets in front!
triplets!
yingni tripl, I and nicky baby..of course with our omnipresent cards!
[10:40 p.m.]
And it feels odd that I don't have anyone in particular that I want to celebrate liberation with. I ought to feel happy and excited, but strangely enough, I don't.
Everyone's packed full of activities, if I want to get them out it's almost impossible.
So now, even though I can smell liberation (it's less than 24 hours away) I think I'm going to be at a loss cos I don't know what to do.
27th Nov Thurs:
phys 3, 2-4.30pm
head home to change, then fitting gown at 6pm, Roxy Sq.
meet up with fion, nick, jon and everyone else to party the night away...
Fri:
10am appointment at hairdressers to dye hair
EMPTY
7pm cell grp
Sat:
VJCSB tune-in morning
Out with Fon
Sun:
morning church
afternoon meeting Shihui to get prom stuff.
bleah. physics it shall be.
[1817]
yep and who's gng zouk on sat night besides the regulars? still contemplating..
[2335]
Awwww! so cute right! My newest cousin! Well, actually it's second cousins, since it's my mom's cousin's son. But he's like my first uncle anyway.
I'm melting! I want a baby!
haha. I'm kidding aight.
haaa! He's sticking out his tongue after I kept doing it! And the irritating "V" is my mom's fingers.
hammie! her hair doesn't seem to be dyed huh. really resistant hair...it WAS supposed to be mahagony copper blonde or something to that effect. but umm..it seems black haha.
yay. I've done enough propaganda and pressurizing. ahah. And Shaun's coming to VJ with 7 points!
Woah my family's smart. Jervis left TJ with 4As. Now I feel my parents breathing down my neck. My mom says she's going to get a heart attack next year.
[2220]
I actually miss someone right now.
I'm bloody excited!
Have lined things up already, I think I'm gonna need a organizer for the list of activities after next thursday.
Still sick.
And mom got a little uptight about me staying out late just now, saying that I "still have papers left, don't play too early". Yeah sure, I need a breather baby.
hah.
Hammie's coming over at 9am to dye her hair, and my sis' PSLE results is going to be released at 11am (haaa exciting!). Then off to my uncle's house to see his newborn!
He babysat me eons ago (aight maybe I am not THAT old but..you get the idea) when he was a teen. And I saw his first girlfriend, then the second, then the third..and his settling down..and now his firstborn! SO thrilled!
Wow. He's the hippest! The one who smuggled me to clubbing in the past and talks to me like he's my buddy!
lovely.
[0117]
damnit, I can only manage a flipthru' for both the papers tomorrow.
and everyone else (esp those tt didn't take chem) had much more time to prepare for physics, doing TYS fervently and all. but me. ah. time management and Grace don't seem to go well at all.
one more week one more week one more week. it's disgusting how time seems to go so slowly when I think of liberation, but how fast time passes when I'm studying and panicking. I can't seem to get past some topics. Esp ideal gases, thermodynamics and DC.
6 more topics to go. And a empty TYS to do.
I NEED REST! I NEED LIBERATION! I NEED TO BE FREE!
I think I just morphed into a psychotic,whiney and ill Captain Planet. hahaha.
Physics is like salt. There. I don't have to tell you what comes next.
I'm going to melt. Latent heat of fusion=ml!
SAY : "I DON'T GIVE A CRAP ABOUT EXAMS!
I DON'T GIVE EVEN A MICROPICONANO CRAP ABOUT EXAMS!
CAM****** IS MADE UP OF OLD ROTTING GAY FAGGOTS!
THE EXAM PAPERS ARE CRAP!
EXAM PAPERS ARE BUT EQUIVALENTS OF TOILET PAPER
PHYSICS IS CRAP!
NEWTON, FARADAY, LENZ, MILIKAN ETC. ARE ALL COMPOST !"
now proceed to tear up all your notes, burn them all up if you're crazy enough, attack the physics department and the best thing: crap on your exams papers tomorrow.
I'm crazy! I'm full-blown cranky!
[1730]
Nick, Zhao, Jon? , Kev?, Mark...all you ppl.
Download it here.
yes. Nick you're doing the rest..accommodation and the other attractions.
booking air tickets in December..I think I can settle that.
[2139]
How can I not know what exactly to feel towards them?
And something tugs at my heartstrings when I look through my archives.
indescribable feeling reading my life a month ago. half a year ago. a year ago. two years ago even.
at least, what didn't kill me, made me stronger.
remaining chem papers and phys 1,2 this week. good luck to all =) the bio people too.
And I am getting antsy thinking about the endless possibilities 2 weeks later. restless, fidgety, impatient and irritated like a hyperactive little kid forced to watch a, let say, National Day Rally. haha.
dig this. The New Paper on Sunday reported something similar. How can the blithering idiots (I don't mince words) not at least know about the NSmen issue, nor that Mahathir has stepped down for Abdullah Ahmad Badawi (he's even conducting spotchecks to improve standards, wow) and that RAdm Teo isn't the Education Minister anymore? Well at least these three issues concern us don't they?
NS, like, hello guys? Do you all want to continue being dunked silly (in this case to death) in water and not know it's an unauthorized action? Malaysia..do you even know where's that? Education Minister, come on people. Don't all struggling students out there has plotted at least once to torture and burn him alive?
And for your info, the acting Education Minister is Tharman Shanmugaratnam (A HUGE mouthful indeed.)
to all the students, now you know who to rename your voodoo doll.
And I digressed. Anyway, 2 weeks later.
[2320]
apt indeed. Wasn't a wrong choice then. But it may be now. considering the changes that occurred after that.
still on my mind, no matter how I try to hide.
disappointment. bordering on the precipice of an impasse. was it? you perceived it akin to double-crossing. but there was no basis for that judgement. and you never knew.
it was, all in all a total letdown. for someone I thought unpredictable, it was a real stunner alright.
the movies, rides, countless lunches and even that special day.
regret is purportless anyhow.
the fink. whose perfidy was equaled only by his gall.
at a loss for words. indescribable damage.
no room for fingerpointing nevertheless.
what it does, is leave scars that are constant reminders.
[0058]
been a while.
expectations cannot be raised too high, especially not when I knew I didn't exactly do my best.
plus I have to face a towering pile of chem and physics.
extremely pretty sight I tell you, looking at TYS' and notes and prelim papers.
in reality it's exacerbated by the fact tt I don't know why, nor who to turn to.
layout alright? anyway it doesn't matter. It's my blog.
[2231]
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VJCyr2/SG
God family friends my babies
pseudopunkletAThotmailDOTcom
loved&loving.
never let me go/i wanna spend eternity with you
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