before 2003 ends...I'd like to say
thanks my dear friends...for making my life so colourful..for being here for me.. for loving me and making me sucha blessed girl.
goodbye VJ. it has been a great 2 years, filled with highs and lows, finding new friends (funnily most were during the A's), and maturing through it all.
I'm not as empty as I was before..cos I found God again.
my life took a new direction...because I let go...and although it wasn't meant to be...ultimately I learnt to let it go overall. and it ceases to be as painful. numb perhaps. but thanks anyway..especially to one person. (which I shall not name..) I miss the memories...who doesn't? but I never wanna regret the choices I made. life goes on. as always.
oddly sentimental huh.
[26'12'03']
bloody pissed.
WHATEVER. bloody freaks.
[23'12'-3]
centro was a bad choice. minus the fact tt we went to support nick. ah. bored to death. lousy bloody music. no hanky panky whatsoever. minus the accident haha.
class chalet today. nothing much to say.
yeah. went for some hair modelling thing today. now I've got funny hair. and a pink streak at my left. with funny bangs. oh no. I look like an alien.
[22'12'03']
life's good. and there's nothing much to blog abt. since I don't even know exactly what am I feeling.
learning driving (russell is in my class!), getting job interview(s) next week, prospective moolah coming in. just that little headache about choosing something I like, or something that pays.
love life wise, ahhhhhh.
Hope I'll settle down into some decent paying job and I'll have interest..else..it'll turn into some IMRE crap attachment again.
nice week.
shall hiatus...since I'm happier..and leading a more monotonous life.
[18'12'03']
i'm off to aust tmr for a week!
yes...I'll miss everyone...ESPECIALLY song...whom I won't be seeing until next year Jan...
muackkkkk darlings.
be back in a week!
[07'12'03']
dead tired.
rest in the album! off to have some much awaited rest, and a retreat.
[added]
we didn't stay after dinner ended...instead we mingled around. took some class pics and I got hugs from many pple! haa so niceee... then we crashed ding's room at ritz. and we actually lay around in the ritz toilet looking at the beautiful scenery! hahah plus taking stupid photos! in the bath tub! haa with song arranging us in different ways!
woke up at 6+am just in time to see the sunrise haha..then we headed to mac for breakfast before we all caught a cab home..exhausted but very happy with the night before! =)
slept for 7 hours already..and I'm still aching all over..plus I couldn't go for my retreat..cos of some family stuff...uhh. sigh.
[051203]
yayee. I've mastered the art of putting on makeup such that it looks good. alright. the DIY queen speaks.
monotonous life without any direction.
aight. off to new hse tmr to laze around.
[02'12'03]
my best friend Fon. for being the dearest..the one who understands me and gives invaluable advice, and supports me in everything. cheers to more than a wonderful decade of friendship.
my bestest Nick. for simply being my bestest. although it hasn't been smooth sailing (okay we always fight) but you know I love you! for sharing the wonderful times..for tt omnipresent listening ear..and shoulder to cry on, and I know we'll always share tt special bond.
darling yirong. for letting our friendship grow even stronger in this 2 yrs. yeah I do feel like I've known you for what seems forever..even though it has only been 8 years. love you.
song babe. I miss you loads right now..hope you're doing fine in US. thanks for enduring my nonsense, for letting me rant..for looking after me and treating me so well and being the understanding darling you are. hugs.
jono! always brainwashing pple into thinking I'm together with so-and-so. YAH RIGHT. anyways..thanks a million for those latenight calls, the blackmailing, the nonsense things we do...and just being you. cheers.
zhao...it's okay I forgive you..girlfriend first! hahas. but hey bro, you still rock my world okay? with all your crap haha...and my bang-in-the-box boss!
kevin...hey sweetie boy. you're like one of the nicest...just don't be so slow! you're so nice I'm so sorry if I ever bullied you! hope you'll always be happy dear boy.
mark..aya. someone loves your huge chest (but it ain't me) anyway...thanks for the times you tried to make me understand it's no use being sad..for sharing similar views, and for slamming me in the pool (WHO AM I JOKING! you still owe me for that!)
dahui! thanks for all the lifts...haha...sorry if we always do the weed thing k. but we really can't help it! you're nice. really!
Terese (congrats girl), Ivy, Shihui (you owe me a bf babe), Fangy (I'm joining you sooon), Hammie (miss u loads), triplet Yingni (all the best sister!) , Rachel, Janice, Yuimin (learn to look on the bright side girl!), Yana...Hey I DO have girlfriends..contrary to popular belief!
Kenneth, Kheecong, Kanghao, Yuanqin, Wei, Lionel, Kanglun, Kabu, Zeming, WC, Ding-punching bag, and countless other pple I can't finish naming...thanks for making 2003 unforgettable.
a whole new year...brand new things to learn and explore. and a whole new road ahead.
in my words, bloody exciting.
[0153]
don't give me the "I'm your sister you've got to pander to my wishes and help me" shit.
nobody gave me any help.
learn it yourself damnit. don't keep breathing down my neck and forcing me to do everything for you.
you live your own life. I can't help you all the time. get off my back aight?
it doesn't make sense. oh well all of you are ganging up against me.
[2205]
anyway I've got privelege membership to Devil's Bar. so whoohoo. with my chivas regal whiskey there of course double whoooohooooo!
off again I'm bored. going to bathe and try to get my hair under a hat or something.
[1636]
the life of a swinging single, that's all.
committal free dates, but of course with the downside of having to decide whether I really have any right feelings for the person.
looking for love in the wrong places, am I referring to myself when I tell others that?
but brief moments of nostalgia still hit..abrubtly and painfully.
shows that I'm afterall, still laden with baggage.
as selfish as I am, I'm continuing with this life as it is.
and scarily as it is...I don't know whether or not to let anything progress. I think I'm ready. but I'm not...pity them though.
brief summary. returned from aussie (which wasn't exactly that nice), celebrated zhao's birthday with his treat of Marche and a whole table of pple (was it 11? love allll of u), spent some time with song on the bus before he flew off to US on tues, registered driving, visited the lib, went out with Mark to recce for jobs, slacked at home, then the highlight of the week: the Jurong waterpark with Mark and Jono today! beautiful. tonnes of fun! pity the rest who didn't go. (and Mark you goon you gave me bruises all over my arms cos you slammed me in the pool! I'm gonna get back at you for that!)
off to settle some stuff now.
see ya all...centro on sat night.
[2238]
miss me won't you?
okay. nicky and song are coming over to spend a last night with me...haha...how lucky can i get?!
hmms. things are almost back to normal already.
had a absolutely great day yesterday. shan't elaborate. ;)
[1950]
preview to photos here. actual prom post will be later, I promise. the album is at the side, the newest! ---->
i did my hair and makeup myself..so I looked pretty bland...in Jon's panpac room toilet haha!
dunman power haha =)
us at ritz hotel bathroom
yup prom's over. with the 70 odd photos taken yesterday uploaded! I couldn't recognize a lot of ppl, esp the girls, with most gng for makeovers and professional makeup and hair styling! goodness. makeup does wonders for some, and for others it makes them plain scary.
well but most ppl looked stunning. hmm seemed like most ppl put in much effort into the long-awaited night, with the thick makeup, hard hair and gowns that competed for attention. we spent the afternoon panicking (okay just me) in jon's pan pac room. haha. I was a mess. in the end I settled my own makeup and hair..but well everyone said tt my makeup was nice! and simple was good! =)
dinner was alright, and what a pity nicky and rong didn't win prom king and queen! haha. took lots of photos, even with pple I barely knew. haha.
aft tt we went jon's room in pan pac to get my stuff and let me change out..before heading to 7eleven at 3am to get breakfast. haha. then we walked to esplanade waterfront!
we just sat there talking and fooling around, then the guys did a little breakdancing. haha i was knocked out after being awake since 8am..so I fell asleep on nick first then song..and song was the sweetest! haha..covered me with their jackets and kept me warm and comfy..haha even at waterfront! yingni joined us too..and I could hear them all talking except I didn't really wanna wake up haha.
ah. a chapter of my life's closed. now's time to start a new one..and do all the things I've always wanted to do.
okay.. a very strange mix of feelings now..don't know to be happy or brood over something I have no control over. but anyway, life goes on! =)
hope everyone had fun at prom!
[1304]
together with curled highlighted hair, I don't look...myself!
bleah.
spent the day with terese and shihui at my humble abode then headed to Parkway for a while.
sigh...it's really dull.
the job agency guy called..which means tt I'll have a part time job on standby! though I'm more interested in retail/service jobs...like icecream or gelato shops! haha.
just don't feel like blogging much.
oh and happy early birthday kenneth!
hope all the tj pple enjoyed their prom tonight at ritz =)
[2052]
grace
bitch.
God family friends.
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